“My love/hate relationship with running”: Weight Loss Diary

Melissa Juliano Weight Loss Diarist for Valerielatona.com

This about sums it up...

I struggle with running. Is it the treadmill? Is it a mental problem? Is it that I am just too heavy to run any further or faster? Or is it just me not pushing myself hard enough?  Do I need another Couch-to-5k program for 2 miles-to-10 miles?  I should look for one….

Today I did a “slow” 2.25 miles at 13 minute 56 second pace per mile. That seems terrible considering that I started running a year ago. Shouldn’t I be able to do more than this?  I have done faster and further but on a regular basis I just can’t seem to do it. I have a love-hate relationship with this running:

I LOVE the challenge. I HATE that I don’t feel progress.

I LOVE that a year ago I couldn’t run 30 seconds. I HATE that a year later I still struggle with 3 miles.

I LOVE the pain. I HATE the pain.

I LOVE the way I feel when I am done. I HATE that it takes so long to get done.

I LOVE the new shape of my calves. I HATE that my thighs still rub together.

I LOVE the ankle-down look in my New Balance running shoes. I HATE the waist down look that I still has so far to go.

Oh, this seems to be straying from what I love/hate about running to what I love/hate about me.  Hmmmmm.  Actually, I don’t hate anything about me.  That was years ago.  I am so past that. I think…

Melissa JulianoAbout Melissa Juliano
Melissa describes herself as "a work in progress". She's a 42-year-old mother of "2 smart and beautiful girls and married to [her] perfect partner". She practices medicine as a physician assistant in internal medicine/hospitalist medicine. She lives in a rural area of Pennsylvania. You can write to Melissa to help cheer her on and/or offer her advice and tips that worked for you at melissa@valerielatona.com.